AND HERE IT IS

So I am finally ready to write this blog. For anyone who is interested, since July of 2008 I have been the less than enthusiastic author of the blog "Not In Kansas". When I started that blog ten months ago, I definitely had an idea of what it was supposed to be like. It was going to be an interesting compilation of the things I did in my day to day life, things I found funny, things I happened to think about, interesting people, stories, songs, whatever. I really thought I was going to take a portion of my day and talk about me as a whole.

Well, I think as time went by my inital goal became a bit thwarted and my posts began moving in a particular direction that was A) not a true representation of my life and B) really starting to bore the crap out of me.

Here's what I figure. It's fun and nice to share how many projects I can knit up, and what new piece of jewelry I designed, and oh, oh, oh!!! I have a new car.....here....take a look at it! It all seriousness, exciting news (in a way) but it's definitely not all I am about. I mean, let's be honest, at the end of the day....who gives a crap?? There is a reason that the first question usually is "How are you" and not "What did you make today?"

I seemed to be more interested in taking pictures to show my accomplishments, instead of just talking about my day....the good days AND the bad days. My good thoughts AND my not so great thoughts. I got caught in this cycle of "you have to make sure everything looks nice and pretty so that people feel happy when they read your blog".

But here's the bottom line.....if I am not feeling happy or cheery on a particular day, I shouldn't have to act that way......especially in a forum that I embraced for the sole reason for being myself. And even more importantly, I shouldn't only write when my life is peachy keen. Do you really want to read about the perfect person with the perfect spouse and the perfect kids in the perfect house and so on and so forth? If you do, that is awesome......head to your nearest library and trot on over to the fiction section.

There's more to me than the physical things my hands can produce. As much as I love knitting, I actually do THINK and DO other things with my life. And at the end of everyday, I have learned something. And that something is what I call (and a lot of people call, so I'm not even trying to coin the phrase as mine) the "a-ha moment"....that moment when all of a sudden things make sense. Not EVERYTHING......just something.

So hopefully, with this new found desire of wanting to truly document bits and pieces of my life without giving a shit about what people have to say about it, I bring you "Chasing The A-Ha Moment". Hope you enjoy it.

Today's a-ha moment: Trying to be goody goody all the time is boring and uninspired.